I don't want to waste the candle talking about it! i just... he just... he started joking about it, and it made me realize that I wouldn't really... and then he kept giving me these memories with all these feelings and kissed the top of my head, how couldn't I respond?! But I know it's selfish, because... because it's not respecting Shuri and I shouldn't have done it, so it doesn't matter!
...... if all they're going to do is hurt people, or make them do bad things...... or... if they do have any authority at all, then my feelings on the matter are already decided anyway. I want it ignored!
Is it? Pretending that there's nothing when there's something there, hiding for what you think is the sake of others ... that sort of thing might be better in the short term, but not the long run.
How can you say what will happen in the long run, or create a better future? It's not as if I'm not hiding my feelings from myself, but going ahead and acting on them-- that's something else entirely!
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Date: 2012-08-03 04:11 am (UTC)I don't want to depress you.
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Date: 2012-08-03 04:13 am (UTC)I know what it was like. I'm not that easily disheartened.
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Date: 2012-08-03 06:16 am (UTC)[ ... wow that was an awkward outburst, um. ]
...... if all they're going to do is hurt people, or make them do bad things...... or... if they do have any authority at all, then my feelings on the matter are already decided anyway. I want it ignored!
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