[CFUD][Backdated to the evening of November 9th]

[quercusoptima]

[those sure are suitcases on the bed]

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[... ;;] Hah...

[halfcocked]

Maybe it means we're gonna go soon, huh?

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...What if it doesn't...?

[halfcocked]

. . . Then that fucking sucks. But we'll be together.

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Nnnnnnn...

[halfcocked]

[shh shh cuddles now .w.]

. . . You upset about being here alone with me?

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...I'm glad that you're still here...

[halfcocked]

If I didn't have you here I'd go crazy . . . [hugs a little tighter .-.]

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[...hugs a little tighter in return :x!!]

D--Don't...

[halfcocked]

I'm okay. I won't . . .

. . . I probably wouldn't anyway. I dunno if I can anymore. Sometimes I think it'd be easier to be crazy again than sad.

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...It really is hard...

There's nothing we can--do.

[halfcocked]

What do you mean?

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At least if you did go crazy then you would be doing... something...

[halfcocked]

. . . Yeah . . .

I'd just kill a bunch of people and I'd pretend that made me feel better. Or maybe that I was never sad at all. That's how I used to be. And it was easy and not doing it now is hard, but--I can't anymore--I'm not that guy, I changed.

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[bluh just silently touching Devit's face]

[halfcocked]

[leaning into it and looking at him solemnly, but then smiling]

But I'm glad.

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--? That you've changed...?

[halfcocked]

Uh huh.

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...Well--I'm glad too...

[halfcocked]

'Cuz now I have you.

[cuddling, mostly calmed down now]

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[ah ;///; yeah just burrowing]

[halfcocked]

[just petting, burrowing against him yessss]

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[seems to have mostly calmed down]

[halfcocked]

[rubbing their cheeks together]

. . . It's gonna suck for a while, but . . .

Want me to see if there's pizza and ice cream at the mess hall or something . . . we can watch a movie maybe?

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...A movie...? [seems slightly dubious...]