[just draped around his neck, hanging there, taking a moment before he says anything]

I always felt like I could just walk out of here. For a while now. That's why I don't ever go to the barrier. Like I could just get sucked out and I'm not ready. If it was both of you--I'd try it, I'd finally go, I'd make myself be ready . . .

Maybe that's bullshit anyway . . . I didn't get any kinda letter.