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quercusoptima) wrote2012-11-15 07:58 pm
quercusoptima) wrote2012-11-15 07:58 pm
[CFUD][Backdated to the evening of November 9th]
[those sure are suitcases on the bed]
[it wasn't very loud yelling. but a little yelly. hugging him again ;;]
That's not true. I didn't want any of us to go before the others. If you went I'd be fucked up too . . .
It's gonna be okay, it just hurts.
That's not true. I didn't want any of us to go before the others. If you went I'd be fucked up too . . .
It's gonna be okay, it just hurts.
[going to try to kiss him .w. much more sweetly and comfortingly]
[IT'S OKAY THIS KISS WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE SEXY ;; rubbing his back]
Yeah . . .
[smiling kind of watery-like and kissing at Shuri's tears ;~;]
[smiling kind of watery-like and kissing at Shuri's tears ;~;]
. . . Then that fucking sucks. But we'll be together.
[shh shh cuddles now .w.]
. . . You upset about being here alone with me?
. . . You upset about being here alone with me?
If I didn't have you here I'd go crazy . . . [hugs a little tighter .-.]
I'm okay. I won't . . .
. . . I probably wouldn't anyway. I dunno if I can anymore. Sometimes I think it'd be easier to be crazy again than sad.
. . . I probably wouldn't anyway. I dunno if I can anymore. Sometimes I think it'd be easier to be crazy again than sad.
. . . Yeah . . .
I'd just kill a bunch of people and I'd pretend that made me feel better. Or maybe that I was never sad at all. That's how I used to be. And it was easy and not doing it now is hard, but--I can't anymore--I'm not that guy, I changed.
I'd just kill a bunch of people and I'd pretend that made me feel better. Or maybe that I was never sad at all. That's how I used to be. And it was easy and not doing it now is hard, but--I can't anymore--I'm not that guy, I changed.
[leaning into it and looking at him solemnly, but then smiling]
But I'm glad.
But I'm glad.
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